TheRamblingsOfABushFox

**warning- shedding of skin in progress** 

Partings with gratitude and love.  

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I’m just a lonely fox lost in decay.

That bitter taste comes up, 

The sinking feeling is heavy.

As you drove your heart away I feel your energy dissipate around me.

I tried hard to fight feelings of selfish desires,,

So I continued to bake. Pouring these chaotic feelings into the sauce,,the caramel bubbling away,, like my feelings could often be reciprocal too,,, burning sweet melting sugar rush. later eating my emotions to fill the void. But somehow this recipe is not as sweet as the gourmet magick we had once cooked up together. I forever contemplate. Mind swimming with uselessness. Did I just eat more than my fill with you? For we are just two souls trying to find ourselves again after almost becoming one,, caught up in frivolous intertwining love held together by steel threads from our childhood past.

So harshly cut.

Should I have ever spoken my peace at all? 

How is it magick man that you can make both skinning a snake and making love fit together so beautifully? ~pure magick~

Mountain man of sacred wildest nature. kindred spirit, Dreamweaver. My fire god. I knew if I pushed my love I would never feel yours again. 

But sadly that is in my nature to give how I feel deeply. I fear I may always be this way. 

~Too bold. Too rash. Too much~ 

you seemed to amplify and inspire the most beautifully lit parts of my shadowy soul, and how I wish I could of been everything you wanted to see in me. How I wish I was her. But now you feel I must keep my distance. Allow you to breathe,, to be the wolf warrior I know and truly love. Even though my heart mourns for what was.what could have been, I appreciate and cherish experiences past. And I wouldn’t change a thing.

The wheel spins as the web weaves. I knew holding on too tight would break connection. But I have no regrets for showing you my depth and sharing in yours. As I do not fear the duality inside of me like you do. Nor do i fear what lays deep inside of you.

For you were never mine to begin with. You were always just a sweet dream.

Your high walls stand tall around your heart once more, an obstacle of your own making,,Grand wizard, I could never blame you. For I am broken and fumbling through this life and Your heart will always be as free as your insulation needs. To be as you will. Something I admire most, Sadly so far away from the space we once shared. But my heart for you homie will always be there.

Spirit man of fire and ice,, for you I would gladly again and again pay this high price. I wish nothing but the very best for you in this life. I’m just eternally greatful that we once together chose to roll the dice.

~Thank you~